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It was nights like this when I’d write. Bloodshot eyes, whiskey on my breath, and a joint in the hand to help me relax. I’m also typing this with my right hand. A few mistakes but well worth the few puffs I get in before the fire dies out. It’s 3:51 in the mornin’. I miss him like the heavens miss a fallen angel. You feel bad for it up until a certain point. The cats are fed and the dog is filled with poo. Can’t sleep, what am I to do? I made a mistake and prepared for the best, but in my own interest. This joint is working its voodoo. I’m tired now. Goodnight. Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.
Pardon my excuses, results of damage, post abuses.
I spent my last dime chasing that fast high.
My conscience, a goody two shoes.
Constant battle, bad temper, short fuse.
There’s more than what meets the eye.
Years of issue wrapped up nice.
Closed eyes grant instant escape.
Temporary fix, short getaway.
In fear I falter, no recognizance of what’s right.
I pity my nights I lost; no sleep.
The truth had shown the light.
Could I move on with what I know now,
Simply forget the rest?
Woe is me, this life I chose.
My worries I lay to rest.
Where do you start?
The urge to move forward but the fear of where to go.
The frustration begins and slowly takes its toll.
Eating you alive from the inside you panic.
Wondering how to contain this endless manic.
In every direction, running every which way.
The course grows longer day after day.
Only those who endure finish as they patiently wait.
No matter how tough or what fears come their way.
Just a couple of minutes to think of what’s next.
Time is limited so you better be quick.
More valuable than gold.
Worth more than money.
It’s all we have, but we think we have plenty.
We share it with those we love and even some we don’t.
We can’t get it back no matter what.
Enjoy what’s left because it will run out.
Stop wasting my time.
I just wanted to take a moment and thank you for never giving up on me.
I just wanted to take a moment and let you hear exactly what you mean to me.
I just wanted to take a moment and thank God for bringing me to you.
I just wanted to take a moment and express my love for you.
I just wanted to take a moment and let you know you’re the apple of my eye.
I just wanted to take a moment and tell you my reasons why.
I just wanted to take a moment to tell you I love you for being more than my best friend.
I just wanted to take a moment and pray that these moments will never end.